(I hope my sister is the only family member I have reading this blog, or else I'll have some explaining to do later.. LOL)
To put it bluntly- I DESPISE THANKSGIVING.
First of all, why have one specific day to be thankful? So we can all go back to being complete assholes for another year, until we wipe our slates clean, like we're confessing our sins to a reverend annually? Why not be thankful and live humbly every day?
Some people have told me this is a celebration of togetherness, as the white man and Native Americans once had.. yeah, that's true.. BEFORE WE ROYALLY SCREWED THEM OVER.
To me, it's just another commercialized holiday, and I want no part in it.
I was never one for tradition. It holds no meaning to me (unless I created the tradition myself), and I have no desire to follow something simply because everyone else is doing it.
I used to like Thanksgiving for the food. But now that I'm older and know what it's like to have spent a few Thanksgivings alone (or traveling), I don't care for the family gathering.
I don't like family functions, period.
Let's just say I'm a living, breathing mockery of everything my family deems as socially acceptable. I cannot hold conversation with them for very long, because I am offensive in my realistic views of the world, and refuse to live in that naive, gotta-sugarcoat-everything mindset. And at every family gathering, EVERY SINGLE ONE, someone has to say something critical and/or pitying about me, and everyone grows quiet and stares at me like I'm some sort of lab rat. AWKWARD.
I would have blown off this dinner if I could, but I got roped into it, because I moved back to PA and I'm "part of the family again." So I can look forward to a long, agonizing evening of "It's good to see you again," and "constructive" (but pointless) criticisms, and comments about how they still can't get over the fact that I dyed my hair (it's been 5 years since I started that), and they like my natural blonde better, and "oh, won't you go back to blonde, because it was so beautiful".. "But I like black/purple".. "But it's not you".. "It IS me, it's a reflection of my personality".. "But it's not natural".. You get the idea.
FUN.
At least I can get it over with this year, and spend the next few Thanksgivings doing whatever the hell I want to do without them complaining too much.